Mackenzie,
From the second I heard your first cry, I was captivated by you. Your funny sense of humor, your kind heart and your curiosity along that dual- dimpled smile are just some of the things that make you the most special girl on earth to your dad and me. You don't know it now, but one day you'll realize just how much you taught us in the first years of your life.
Over the last five years, we've watched ( sometimes with baited breath) as you've fearlessly explored the world around you. First just gazing around through blurry newborn eyes, then the perimeters of our home on hands and knees and now with joyful and unending curiosity , you never tire of learning more about the world around you. Because of your endless curiosity, daddy and I have (re)learned so much. Not only am I excited for
you when you learn some new scientific facts, I'm excited for me, learning right beside you. I look forward to each new season because I know we'll both gain so much knowledge by the end of it. You are so incredibly smart and I am always amazed by you. Listening to
you reading bed time stories to
me at the age of 4 still has me bursting with pride.
Your sense of humor is one of a kind. From making up your own jokes to understanding more complex ones, I never get tired of hearing your genuine laughter at the punch line. You can always manage to bring a smile followed by out right laughter to our house, even when the subject isn't always the most polite.
Your kind heart overwhelms me. When I see you rubbing daddy's back or offering a perfectly timed, desperately needed hug, or find you mothering your little brother by blowing on your macaroni and cheese and feeding it to him ( "one for me, one for you" style) I am so proud of you and for you. I know this trait will be a treasured by many and a valuable one as you grow up.
Rarely are you afraid to try new things. Your love of learning drives you to never miss out on something that might be fun or a learning experience. It's how you learned to love so many things that others miss out on ( like squid!) . I can't wait to see what kind of adventures you have because of this wonderful trait.
You've shown me another side of your daddy. One that doesn't surprise me but that always brings tears to my eyes. Seeing the two of you camping in the yard or peering into a microscope or off on a daddy/daughter adventure makes me love him even more. That's a true gift that I treasure, even if reading this later makes you " wanna barf".
Every year, starting at the end of January and carrying through to your
birthday, I find myself a sentimental mess. This year is no different
and, because you're five this year, maybe even more so. The memories
that I treasure of you and how you changed us, and still change us,
challenging us to be not only better parents but better people, are
endless. There is hardly a thing I see through out my day that can't
somehow be related back to a memory of you.
We haven't always been the perfect parents and we won't ever be. We've mishandled things, we've run out of patience when patience is what you really needed, we've rushed through things that should have been cherished. But I hope that, despite the fact that we aren't always with out fault, you will never , not for a single second, question our love for you. I pray that it it's always evident and you find it plentiful . Remember, I love you all the time. Not just when you're funny, or smart , kind or beautiful. But when you're mad. When you're cranky and occasionally rude ( aren't we all?). When you feel sad. When you belch your name at the dinner table. I love you all the time.Nothing changes that.
The song I chose for your birthday video begs " Oh Darling, don't
you ever grow up. Don't you ever grow up, just stay this little....Don't you ever grow up. It
could stay this simple. " I've begged this of you in my mind too many
times to count. But I know you will because look how you already have.
But when you do grow up, I pray the most sincere prayer that you will
always know your worth. You will always be this kind. You will always
laugh like you do now. That curiosity is never replaced with fear. That you'll always love us as effortlessly as we do you.
Always cheering you on,
your Mommy
Here's Mack's 5th bday video. Don't forget to turn up your volume.