There are few things that can bring a mother to tears like seeing pictures of her growing child set to sappy music. Every year, after spending countless hours constructing Mack's birthday video, I sit down with a box of Kleenex at the ready to watch it. This year I can't help but notice that the imagines flashing across the screen show times' progression as ,with each passing picture, Mack's face shows a little less baby and a lot more " girl".
Though I'm a "new" mom by all accounts, having only four years (and 1.75 kids ) in the game, it seems like an eternity ago that I held this little chubby cheeked baby across my chest, feeling her tiny lungs breathing in new life, amazed that this tiny baby package contained so much potential and wondering who she would grow up to be.
Four years later, I still marvel at her but now there are a few less unknowns. I
know that Mackenzie will always love to laugh and love to make others laugh. I
know that she will be the first one to offer help when someone needs it. I
know that she will always be hungry to know why something is the way it is and " I don't know" won't ever be good enough to satisfy this hunger. I know all of these things because on a daily basis, Mackenzie coaxes out true genuine laughter from me with her made up knock knock jokes or her silly antics. She is the first one to wipe away my hormonal pregnancy tears with her bare hands and kiss my cheek with a gentle pat on the back. She amazes me with the questions she asks and the ability to solve problems with out any help at all from me.
March 7th is a day that changed my life into something so much more meaningful than I could have known then. That tiny body that grew from mine has taught me so much , transformed me and pushed me to be better than I was . And because she laughs, I laugh. Because she loves, I love. Because she learns, I learn. This is the beauty of motherhood and I am so honored to be one of the hands she holds as she finds her way through life.
Happy 4th Birthday to the girl whose hand I proudly hold,
( click the little box underneath the red bar to enlarge the picture and turn your volume up )A note about the songs: The third song " Big Yellow Taxi" is a favorite of Mackenzie's and it's a strange choice for a bed time song. One night, well over a year ago, Mack asked Mike to sing " The Taxi" song. She was requesting a children's song that is sung on Nick Jr. about riding a taxi across town. Mike hadn't heard this song at the time, so he sang the only " taxi" song he knew of, " Big Yellow Taxi" . Though this wasn't at all the song Mack had originally asked for, she loved it and it's now a part of our nightly bedtime routine.